I think you ought to know we wonder about the same things. Sometimes we look in the mirror and sigh. We have all privately cried in bed or at our desks over a sad, silly thing nobody else would understand. Loneliness has hit us all unexpectedly like a wave. Whether wordlessly home alone or in a room full of people. There are some thoughts we can’t utter out loud, not even to our best friend or the person closest to us; because there are some truths that are impossible to utter and should stay in silence. We have all overcome at least one big hard thing or moment in our life that we genuinely felt we never could. I hope you find solace in knowing that which needs mending will mend, and that which is irreparable will disappear, in time. Give it time. Let the dust of all your past mistakes settle, so you can polish and turn them into the lessons they were meant to be in your life (and to not fall into them again). Your life is a story all your own. Meant for you, and you alone to write. There will be some really really good chapters. Keep those close and store them deep in your heart. You’ll need the warmth of those chapters to get you through the ones that are plagued with nothing but disaster. Know that it’s up to you to scribble them back into happy endings. Some chapters will make sense to nobody but you, and that’s okay too. The past (the people, memories, and places in it) all feel like a dream. It’s a strange feeling and yes, we all feel it. Know you must be brave enough to let go sometimes, and yes that will hurt too; but sometimes the desire to leave is reason enough to go. Just go. Fast, and don’t look back, you’re not heading that way. There will be a select few that you must cling to like glue and you’ll know who they are. They always make themselves known. Your self confidence will come and go like waves on the shore, but nothing changes except your state of mind. You are all your best traits on your worst days. Just know, all of this and more… its perfectly okay. You’re not weird or alone in feeling these things. You’re doing perfectly okay.