Katia and I have this thing about sunrises and sunsets.
Sunsets and large bodies of water in particular.
Something about this combination brings us peace deep within our souls.
So its become a favorite past time of ours to go out for a walk in the evening or in the morning to chase this feeling.
Last week we went down to the lake to waste a little time before our evening sunset gazing ritual, and I happened to capture these pictures of her:
When I saw them, I felt deja vu because i’d seen this little girl before in a similar dress.
….Only she was a lot smaller:
…and I wept very bitter tears because I realized that my baby is not a baby anymore.
Just kidding.
I didn’t weep bitter tears, but it did make me gasp a little. You know those little gasps you make because you’re caught off guard at how much you don’t realize the way time flies…until you do?
Then I went down memory lane because that’s what you do when you get slapped in the face with the reality of time.
This picture is one of my favorite pictures that was taken of us.
So unreal even I have a hard time believing its not a painting.
But I was there guys, I saw it happen with my own eyes.
Then there’s this one:
When I was actually able to hold her body up in the air like this without feeling like I am bench pressing.
I miss being able to do that.
However, this trip down memory lane did make me realize this kid and I have been chasing moments in the sun for a long time. In five years, she will be 12 and I will be looking at today’s memories feeling the same nostalgia I’m feeling now about the moments from five years ago.
I guess what i’m trying to say is… life is happening right now. Don’t let it slip away without being able to say you’ve captured these moments, these feelings, in your heart. As for me and this kid, we will continue to chase moments in the sun for as long as we are both breathing… and that brings me a comfort only someone who is trying to stop time understands.
“Have you not noticed that love is silence? It may be while holding the hand of another, or looking lovingly at a child, or taking in the beauty of an evening. Love has no past or future, and so it is with this extraordinary state of silence.”
-Krishnamurti